NOT FEELING GOOD RIGHT NOW

no having a great time right now i care for the wife she has bipolar2 PTSD personality disorder epilepsy and arthritis i have done for 6 years part time but for the last 2 years i have been looking after her full time i gave up a job of 17 years to do this. Im not a shamed of doing this job im doing i just want to be back in what i was doing i have lost so many friends doing this dont see people much no one comes round the house to see us it such a lonely life and its getting to me i get 5 hrs a week off caring slit in to 3hrs and 2 hrs i so wish i could get out more even for a day just to go fishing or some thing for me