had respite break yesterday

I had my first respite break for 3 hours yesterday evening went to see some old friends from the amateur radio club lots of new faces there as well . it was our annual awards night with raffle and supper. the wife was with her new PA she said it was difficult for her having someone that she doesn't know that well in her home its just going to take time for them to get to know each other better. Even for the PA it was strange too as she use to working in units not in homes but they seamed to get on well and are looking at working out the other 2 hrs as well each week. as for me i had a great night chatting and doing the norm in the raffle i could of come away with about 8 prizes but that would not have been fair on others but i was made to take a second one and im now looking forward to next Thursday night  to go have a natter and cuppa with the guys and girls from the club a bit of normal life . This has speared me to get myself back into the hobby i loved and im now looking at building a radio again from kit :)

bad start

ooh well not been a great start for today wife had a stumble yesterday almost went to the floor was in a bit of pain in her solder got up this morning and it even worse just tried to get docs appointment for her to be told call back at 12pm ... im hoping we dont have to have a trip to A+E today as i have an appointment at 3.30 myself and DLA say she dont need high rate mobility and she cant even walk on a flat path without fulling over grrr. feeling frustrated right now as this all seams to come one thing after another so after a few good days im back to helping her dress undress wash. life must go on this is my job .... what frustrates me more if you try to talk to some about how you feel all you get from them is you choose that life .... well in sorry no it choose me my wife never asked to be mentally ill have atheists and have problems with walking .so i never choose this life
 on how im feeling right now i wish this day would just end and could go back to bed and start again in the morning but NO i cant or the wife will suffer .

HELLO

Hi to you all im just starting out in the new roll as a carer
the wife became very ill with a mental illness back in dec 2013 when i became her full time carer.
it was a big change in life for me as i was a coach driver going into London everyday from here in Manchester. The wife has not worked she as all ways  been a mother and home maker  due to having epilepsy from a child but now we have found out that she also has had for some 25 years but was being hidden by the medication for Epilepsy that she has PTDS (post traumatic stress disorder) personalty disorder  bipolar type 2 Anxiety attracts that prevent her going out or even people coming in and inflammation of the joints that makes it hard for her to walk about and do daily things.

our wedding in june 2012